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Here's a new idea...

Here's a new idea...

Something I find interestingly irritating about myself is my ability to understand the benefits of a concept without being able to follow through and reap them. It feels like the equivalent of somebody saying, “Would you like this apple? It’s good for you!”, and me knocking it out of their hand and spitting at them; all the while thinking, “God, I wish I had an apple.”

I love reading self-help books and listening to life advice and discussing concepts - I love it so, so much. The act of arming myself with tools I either need or might need feels amazing. There is nothing like that feeling of the penny dropping and an explanation finally rationalising your thoughts and behaviour. “Ohhhhh!”, I regularly exclaim five minutes into a TEDtalk.

Putting these concepts into practise is another matter, however. It seems to take a few months for the filtering process to be complete and have the helpful tool nestle into my subconscious. So much of what I hold dear to my understanding of the world had to wait a while to get here. “If only I’d started thinking this way earlier!”

I like to think it is because part of me has to take time working out whether or not an idea of concept would be right for me to adopt. But it is more likely that I am over-stimulated by the sheer amount of media I consume.

Either way, however long or arduous the journey to get to where we want to be, our arrival would not be nearly as meaningful without the struggle. Someone can hand you a nail gun but it takes time, patience and skill to use it to build something safe that will last.

There is no use in regretting that we have not spent the last few months cluelessly running around with a nail gun. That’s how people get hurt.

Carmen x

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